In recent times, my prayer life has been suffering. Praying has been a tad bit difficult. I find myself struggling, my mind constantly drifting, my attention span waning and the days I tell myself no Grace! Try again, I find myself once again struggling, my mind drifting, all focus lost…
This leaves me sad, confused, angry even. What’s changed? What’s different? I live my life concious of his presence so why should communicating with him be so hard these days? Then I remembered a saying…[ctt title=”‘Pray hardest when it\’s hardest to pray'” tweet=”‘Pray hardest when it’s hardest to pray'” coverup=”2Tn8a”]
Easy peasy right? Well that’s when the real work starts. It’s like the distractions double. The other day I woke up, showered first before praying so I wouldn’t blame it on still feeling sleepy but guess what? I fell asleep. So I changed tactics. No more lying down or kneeling down to pray. I tried standing. You would think that would help right? Well It didn’t.
Work of the devil you say? He’s trying to hinder me from reaching out to God right? He’s threatened by my prayer(s) and this is one of his many plots right? I agree. I agree and worry has set in, so I started trying to pray while walking or driving. Nope that doesn’t work as well cos my mind and thoughts always drift away somehow. I am frustrated!!!
I do understand that I am a threat to the devil and the more I pray and study the word of God, the more I sheild myself from his evil ways so now I start with “Dear Lord, help me pray. Help me stay focused and keep all distractions at bay, Amen”
Yes it works. Though the mind and thoughts still drift a little bit, I seem to be able to keep it under control and the more I ask God to help me focus, the easier it becomes. Phew! The devil almost had me there. Nice try devil, nice try.